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yesterday afternoon wanna blog... but cannot log in... don't know wats wrong... wanna say kenji today sunday in hospital, tomolo operation... i believe he will be aright... yah, he will... yesterday he got work de, but nv come... don't know wats wrong... sick?? something on?? haiz... miss him so much... i think got 1 month nv see him... hope can see him soon... nothing much... today 1am plus kunda liu yan... he changed his ID le... yah... thats all... going to clean my place... bye...
today 18 of jan... two more month to kunda birthday... today nothing much... yah... still learning how to fan xia... oh yah... that day keng hui make me did a deep thot... i told her i very like him... then she say haiz... universatity guy very difficult to be possible with ite gal de la... u must at least be poly lo... haiz... although i don't think that is a must... but still from the start i aready know... not only the knowledge part, and also i must think of wat kind of gal am i... do i fit him... my attitude... well... i am waiting 4 a guy to accept my attitude... cause i won't change them... is difficult... unless they will cause of me to change something 4 me... maybe i am not a gal that suit him... well, let god discide... if we meant to be together, one day we will... i will still be a gal that mo mo xi huan ta... a smile or a small talk from him will make me feel hen xin fu le... wat else can i expect for...
xiao xiao de wo, na li pei de shang yi ge xiang ni na me you tiao jian de yi ge nan ren... jiang lai ke neng bu hui you ren he de jie guo, dan zhi yao neng kan dao ni kai xin, wo ye hui kai xin he gan dao hen xin fu de... zhen de, ni de kuai le jiu shi wo de kuai le... sui ran ni bu hui xi huan / zhi dao wo xi huan ni dan wo bu hui huo hui ai shang ni... shi ni rang wo zhe 3 nian lai zai you xin tiao de gan jue, ye shi rang wo hui zai na me xi huan yi ge ren...
later see tv til 1am then will slp le... gd night... tomolo 6am need wake up cause 8am lesson... tired ah... 3 more days... jia you...
hi... finally have time to edit my blog thing... link r new... check it out... sort lots of thing 4 my blog... from effect of feb... my blog will only blog when something special happen... tired of blogging... and my feeling abt idol will not in my blog any more... it will be at another blog... new year, change new way of my way presenting blog ma... lalala...
about kunda... think lots... time yes... its wat i really need... not to escape fact anymore now... i have decided... although my decision will hurts me lots... at thats one time go, if i nv did that, i will pain more than once... hope i did it... i must... my decision is treat him as normal idol, me n him, just idol n fans... will stop loving him... yah... be a normal fans... just like n support him cause his song... yah... painful decision... hope i don't regret it... no, i won't... hehe... u may wonder y i make much a big decision... simple, i don't wanna have any more pain... don't wish keep on crying just cause of him... don't wanna waste lots of time on him... just wanna be a normal n simple fans... maybe getting tired of loving him... maybe loving him is all my fault... suffer lots cause i didn't accept the fact that me n him r just idol n fans... last time i always thot that watever i do 4 him, is zhi de one... but now... not that i fully regret but i think i too much le... haiz... k... sort things out... don't regret... jia you... xiaoyi...
oh yah... i think i nv say b4 my grandmum on last tue hurt her left hand... haiz... right leg left hand... omg... can't imagine wat gotta happen next... hope nothing will happen to her ever again...
hello... back... just 2 to 3 day nv online only... got ppl which seem that he or she don't have name which i think should call him or her nameless enter my blog n tag... tagging is not a problem... problem is he or she use my nuer name to tag... acting he or she to be her... haiz... nameless ah nameless... wanna disture my blog also not like that de ma... think i nv online can bully my tag bored ah?? haha... i will always be here de... i will know wat happen de... lalala...
oh yah... back right?? this week no him... yah... he nv work... last seen him was like hmmm... 3 week?? almost a month le... miss him like hell... can u imagine wanna one month nv saw him?? that kind of missing someone feeling is diam terrible... k... i should stop complaining as this weekend can see him le... lalala...
time 105am... will blog another time... time to slp le... tomolo 6am lesson... night...
today is 13 of jan... this few days, not free to blog... see tv prgram til 1am n 6am must wake up to go sch... so really not time to online... nothing much happen... today exam can get full mark, thats was wat i thot b4 i met my teacher... after i saw her, she told the class must show working... so i won't get full mark le... shit... haiz... my mistake 4 not reading intrustion... shitty de... after exam, sick... ah... flu... my nose like open tap water like that... keep driping... til now 115am still flu... argh... eat medicine 2 time still like that... hope will be fine tomolo i wake up... cause tomolo need to work la... plz... hehe... yesterday afternoon slp, dream abt kenji... abt him in spore, chasing him here n there... thot of it, quite miss him... i think it would takes at least half a year to see him back in spore bar... haiz... today, date due... haven't reply mr xie... as i haven't try to thot of it... tomolo working n sunday too... so i liuyan say will give him real answer next week... haiz... heart pain... hehe... i miss him, xxx... haha... hope tomolo can see him... lalala... night... bye...
10 jan 2006...
yesterday nv online... diam tired by the time i watch tv finish... was like 2am le... today need wake up 10am ma... so nv online... nothing much... exam... hate... hate ppl taking n decising abt exam just after the exam... make me find so much mistake... make me so sad... haiz... tomolo will knows the result... hope is gd... at least a B... other then that, go see grandmum... thats it...
today kenji fc meeting... planning... position planned... nothing much... after that, 230pm, meet mum... go bugis buy new year clothes... wow... spend $100 on 2 shirt n one skirt... omg... thats lots... thx mummy... i promise to work hard... give u a better life... back home was 9pm... tv time til 1am... online... see kenji blog... liuyan give kenji in his blog... see my kenji blog... liu yan give milk... later maybe will see ppl blog bar... thats it...
today saw someone looks like him while in mrt going to raffles place to take train back home... but i don't think its him... kinda miss him lots... sat n sun working... will i have the chance to see him?? hope so... i miss him lots... wanna to see him... just see him, i will be lots of happy... my small request, i think god will make my wish come true bar... just to see him... i don't ask 4 much... just to see him... yah...
now my heart pain... something make it... feel diam xin ku... feeling like wanna to break down le... i need to put out my stress... i wanna to cry out... but... i still need to wait til exam over to think of it... if i cry now, i need to think lots of things to solve it... but i can't now... so need to keep the pain deep inside my heart... y will it every time happen to me... y must it always be u... y do i love u... y did god let me love u... its make my life so painful... although sometime is happy... but 3 time pain to exchange one time happiness... i don't need... i don't want... maybe i have change... but... i don't know... haiz... will my love 4 u be gone 4ever, mr xie...fri will be the day...
today is 8 of jan 2006... yesterday nv blog cause diam tired by the time of 1am... and i today wanna to wake up at 9am to see tv... today 9am see tv til almost 1pm... got eat breakfast inbetween n medicine too... then 1pm slp til 4pm... wake up... online plus eat lunch... see jia zhu... was so sad abt mr xie kun da... later then talk abt it... then saw shu wei liu yan so reply back... shu wei ah, got problem wanna ppl help then liu yan de... haha... then liu yan give milk... then liu yan give kunda... a total sad liu yan 4 kunda... after this liu yan 4 kunda, i may be missing 4 while from kunda jia zhu... cause he make me diam sad and lots of thing to think again b4 i can get back to normal de me... after that, see kenji news... tonight got one tv show got him... don't know scv can see or not... lalala... later see finish kenji n my kenji blog le... will go n study 4 tomolo stat CA... hope its easy... but... still must be easy... don't care whether its gotta to push down the A... as long as i don't get the A... lalala... but i want at least a B... lalala... k... wish me gd luck bar... later will not come up le bar... night... oh yah... mr xie kun da... k... maybe is i xiao qi... maybe is i mo ming qi miao... but i diam sad by this many time le... again today, saw him last night online, join other fans jia zhu but nv join mine... not one time le... is more then 2 time le... can u imagine the pain in my heart when i know it... haiz... maybe its just my luck... i will put this thing all behind til fri... when exam r over... til then, i will think lots, n i will be fine... will think wats so zhi de 4 me to so like him... wat will i get 4 being so love him... its had been one year... that silly me that nv thot of wat am i doing... k... when i am back, i will be just fine... maybe i will fall n hurts lots n deep... but i will face it... k... bye...
today 6 of jan 2006... today wake up at 1pm... see tv n eat lunch til almost 2pm... meet keng hui at wdl mrt control station to take my book... those book r important as mon n fri de exam r concern... as yesterday n today nv go sh cause sick, so the book really thx to keng hui 4 the help... taking it from sch til wdl give me... haha... y don't send to my house... lalala... hehe... then busy ah... reach home 230pm... bath til 3pm... pack room til 4pm... go see grandmum til 7pm... eat dinner til 730pm... reach home almost 8pm... clean my room floor til 9pm... see tv til 11pm... then online... see kenji blog... see my kenji blog... see kenji jiazhu... lots of news abt him... lalala... liu yan give kunda n milk... see ppl blog... then i blog le... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... bye...
today 5 of jan 2006... today i am sick... cough n flu... diam it de... hate that feeling when cough n flu together... hen xin ku de... ni zhi dao ma?? ni liao jie ma?? okey... i am mad... copy kenji de... haha... his one is ni liao jie ma??*2... wake up wanna go sch but feel sick... back to slp til 1130am... then wake up... rest awhile n eat bread... see tv... 130pm, online...2pm eat lunch til 230pm... 3pm go see doctor... doctor give me 2 day mc... so sch friend, don't too miss me ah?? i will be back on mon... oh, monday, accounting CA... head pain ah... 430pm reach home... today grandmum transfer to church to stay there... wanna go see her... but when i reach home, they when out le... haiz... nvm... tomolo ba... then see tv til 8pm... then dinner still see tv til 9pm... 9pm eat medicine... see tv til 11pm... online... see ppl blog... see kenji blog... see my kenji blog... saw a news on kenji jia zhu... abt him on tv... any one heard of channel V?? in spore can see it if i have SCV?? then liu yan give milk n kunda... then i blog le... time 12am... wanna slp le lo... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... oh yah... yesterday night dream abt milk... chasing him near his hotel... haha... k... bye...
today is 4 of jan 2006... today wake up at 10am... lesson at 12pm... end lesson at 4pm... reach sch, buy you weekly, have part of kenji autograph de thing only... one pic only... yesterday lent siew geot the kenji vcd n dvd... she today return me le... ask her nice or not the song?? she say nice... ask her mv nice to watch or not?? she say nice... then i ask her, nice go n buy his album la... she say don't want... dotz... haiz... accounting lesson... teacher give worksheet... take it, saw it... one supplier name call kenji superstore... haha... next sec, yiwen turn over to me n say kenji name in the paper... i say i saw le... whaha... then as normal, shuyu like to disture ppl de... she shout in class kenji, then watever watever la... haha... after sch when to meet mer... go far east eat long john... then walk walk... one shop, the jacket very nice... the shop sell de clothes n pant not bad leh... from hong kong de... nice... hope have the money to buy in some day... lalala... then meet wei... yesterday her bday, so i wish her happy bday lo... then see them buy food... i see table 4 them... as i eat le... then their food here, i go home le... cause 8pm... 9pm wanna see tv la... sorry... haha... then reach home 5min b4 9pm... then see til 11pm... then iron cloth til 1130pm... then online... see kenji blog... blog on my kenji blog... liu yan give kunda n milk... see other ppl blog... then blog le... time 1225am... tomolo need 7am wake up... tired ah... i hate it... k... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... bye...
today is 3 of jan 2006... today nothing much... 6am wake up... 8am lesson... eat at 10am in 15 min must finish... lesson til 1pm... go cwp... exchange my good but cannot... so exchange 4 another good in return as i want de goods no stock le... hmmm, wait... got de... remember yesterday i say i open my new buy de puncher... i go n exchange as when i open it i aready spoil... then i exchange today, that guy go n take new one which happen to be the last one... he open n on the spot spoil which same as wat happen when i open it yesterday... diam funny... then i buy a dvd recorder... cause i always wanna record tv show, but i don't have one... ask friend, friend also don't have, if not is selfish de... say don't have, think i don't know meh... haha... oh yah... accounting teacher nv come... give homework...reach home 3pm... see movie on my SCV til 5pm... go n slp til 7pm... then wake up... cook noodle dinner n eat til 8pm... then see zhong yi da ge da, got mayday... moster shuai n hao man... masha ke ai... haha... bth me... see til 9pm... then see channel 8 til 10pm... then wqyl til 11pm... then see movie from SCV til 1am... then online... then see kenji blog... he nv update leh... think he still in shang hai... later he still need go hong kong bar... haiz... think he sure tired de... xin ku ke qun le... then i liu yan give kunda n milk... oh yah... i still have feeling 4 my dearest hubby leh... bleah... then i blog le... later seeing ppl blog... k... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... tomolo lesson 12pm... slp soon... bye...
today 2 of jan 2006... another day passed just like that... manage to slp til 2pm... wake up eat lunch n see tv til 3pm... then go out with mummy n bro to buy new year goods... buy til 5pm... then go back home... pack things... see tv til 630pm... then go out eat dinner til 730pm... then go see grandmum til 830pm... then go home... reach home 9pm... see tv til 11pm... then online... see blog... write personal blog of kenji de... liu yan give milk n kunda... then i blog le... later seeing other ppl blog bar... k... tomolo sch reopen le... sian ah... sian ah... need to work harder le... sch reopen de next week got 2 CA... hell man... i need help ah... haven't touch my book lo... holiday one week is not enough... some more holiday with 2 public holiday... eat our holiday... k la... must jia you... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... oh yah... me really miss him... 2 week nv saw him le... need at least another 2 week to see him... cause next week he cannot work, i also... haiz... miss him like hell... also missing my hubby and bao bei lots...
today 1 of jan 2006... wake up at 930am... make til so late then eat lunch... eat half way til 11am... no time le... rush to work... time just nice... stress up when one timing got lots of customer... less waitress as the rest having lunch... got 5 customer together de, call me go over, then they take own sweet time choosing... nvm la... another 7 customer also like that... k... nvm... diam stress that time... dian call me do thing i scream at her... sorry ah... then order out, here wrong there wrong... kao... i nv did wrong... is customer say wrongly... he told me onne curry udon then after few order say curry rice de... but he say he only order curry rice... shit la... ken ask me mar, then i say back i nv wrong la, then settled, but later found out i shouted... haha... he say cool down la, don't need so loud de... james our manager say he understand, not my wrong...then the other is she point beef rice 2 plate to me... i still got repet 2 time lor... order out, she say she order 2 plate pork or chicken rice... i diam piss lo... i wanna kao bei back le... zhao li stopped me... luckily, she stop me... don't know wat wrong with me, so worked up... after all, free lunch thx to that 2 wrong beef rice... one of it, my lunch... haha... plus ken wrong order de belly soup... nice nice... lalala... oh yah... jialin... nono... nv meet him... today i work morning, he work night... so... hehe... next week he not working... i also cannot... cause next next week 2 CA... hope next next week can see him... lalala... back home... 530pm... 6pm out 4 dinner... nv eat lots as my lunch is 4pm eat de... see grandmum... back home 930pm... eat noodles leftover in the morning as i rush time ma... now time 130am hungry again le... haha... see tv til 11pm... then online... liu yan give milk n kunda... write kenji feeling blog... u all won't know the link to it... lalala... see other ppl blog... then blog le... k... gd night... sweet dream... miss him*5... hope tomolo can really have a gd rest... hope daddy tomolo won't call me to go down to help him... don't like... k... bye...
happy new year... i know... i am diam late... y don't a happy belated new year... lalala... haha... saw everyone blog... most of it... writing wat happen in year 2005... think they really spent lots of time to do some research to blog abt the whole year... and i wanna to blog abt the whole year too... but i won't do any research... do a sample recall can le... time saving yah... haha... k... let see...
- Chase energy
20++jan, apr, 20++jun, 7++july, 3nov...
NKF... Final Fantasy album out, autograph session... energy 2005 yong yuan bu shuo zai jian concert... JQJ hits award, get best group award n mei li xin idol award...
- Chase kenji
dec 18 til 20...
J8, hotel, chase him, chase til malaysia, happy that he know my name n read out...
- Chase Milk
20++ nov, Dec 25 til 27...
spore, chase him after sch, day r nice, he treat fans diam gd, my first time daring to talk to him, chase him til malaysia...
- Birthday
happy 18th birthday i had in sushi tei working... haha... got friend celebrate early 4 me... some more is 2 group... haha... wats more can i expect?? no more... enough... thx pal...
- bishan ite accouting course
july intake, so far not so like the course, have regret taking...
- working
yah... almost the end of march, i got in my sushi tei... i am working with sushi tei... learned alots... is difficult to learn... but working pal r friendly, willing to teach me... thx... sushi tei D&D in oct or nov?? i forget le... any way is around there... having lots of fun there... food, game, high, dance, drink beer...
- exam
hate exam, hate result...
- charlet
Nov... attend 2 charlet... all is birthday charlet... one is jialin, my dearest daughter brithday charlet... another is joanna birthday charlet... stay overnight 4 jialin de, drink beer, talk, walk around find cyber internet 4 me, bbq food nice, cake r nice, photo taking... joanna de nv stay, as my grandmum on that day operation, not in mood, go there in less then 2 to 3 hour left le... sorry... but ur food n cake r nice too... cake 2 home made de, wow, nice...
- new handphone
bought a new hp on nov 20++... Nokia N70... woohoo... nice one... cost $600++ plus 2 year plan...
- pal birthday
did go 4 few de, can't really recall wat happen... but i did enjoy... remember mer de... bully me... haha... oh yah... part of ur bday present the cd still with me leh...
- love life
nono... no bf... poor me... 3 whole year no bf le... now, like a guy... but don't think he will like me... any way, i don't dare to tell him too... be friend r better then be lover... right...
last but not least, my new year eve alone... yah... happy new year all...
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